I have returned to working on edits now that the manuscript has been returned to me. We talked for a bit about some of my tendencies, and came up with some things I need to work on. Hopefully these edits will go faster than before. I have a few people looking forward to seeing where the story goes, so I want to finish things before this year is over so that I can at least give them something to enjoy.

I do get discouraged a great deal by the fact that I really am not good at selling myself, and it always seems like others are doing better than me even though they are just starting out. I am trying to remember that I write mainly for myself. Sure it would be nice to be able to make a living doing this, but I don't have the time, and have never had a support system that truly makes it possible to devote myself to it as much as I should in order to make it my living.

This is not to say I don't have a support system. I have a few people who are supportive and help me with some things, but what I really need is to be able to act like an author for a year without worrying about finances.

It would be nice if I ever had that opportunity, but I guess that's not really in the cards for me.

Luckily I can say whatever I want here since most likely no one reads this stuff.

I have been sick for the past few days, and typically that helps me realize how completely lost I am. If anyone actually does read this and feels similar, understand you aren't alone. 

Unfortunately I am still waiting for edits to return to me so I can move forward to the next step of the process. On the bright side, I have finished what I am certain will be the new cover of the next book. I have also settled on a name that I think fits it. I will likely reveal the official title soon, so keep an eye on social media and the website for that.

In the meantime, I have begun work on another project that I hope to talk more about soon. I am trying to be a bit more mysterious about my projects in order to possibly build some suspense for it. I will say right now that the plan for this project is a series of audio stories. I am still trying to decide how I will release them, whether for free on podcast platforms or available through Amazon. As I stated, it is still in the early stages.

As for life, it continues despite multiple bouts of depression that hit me every so often. I am trying to do more with social media. I have even begun doing more TikToks. I am hoping to get better with all social media, but considering I work a full time job while being a single parent to a teen and a co-parent to a first grader, it can be difficult to do everything I want and need to do. This means I fall behind on house work and writing work a great deal since they come in at third for my priorities (first being my kids of course and second being the job that actually makes me money). 

I continue hoping for the possible day that I can earn enough money through writing that I can make it my full-time job, but until then, I am glad to be at a work place that isn't toxic and I actually feel alright at.

My last entry contained a great deal of anger at the going ons in my country. Unfortunately things have only gotten worse, but I will refrain from talking about that since this is supposed to be more about me and my work. I hope that my country heals from everything happening, but it will take people standing up for what is right as much as they can. I will say that surviving comes first though, so if you don't have the time/ability to do anything outside of surviving, that is alright. Do not feel bad for that. Surviving in this mess is its own kind of resistance, because it means you aren't going down.

Keep fighting, and keep having a good life despite all of the hate. All of you matter.

It took me long enough, but after I finally pushed past some depression, I managed to finish the first round of edits on the third book. I have now sent it with someone else to look over. Hopefully they will be better about getting through it than I was and I will have it back soon so I can work on the next round of edits. After that, I will be sending it to a few people for a beta read, and then finish up. If all goes to plan I will have a release date for the book before summer is over.

In the meantime, I am working on cover art for the book. I think I have finalized a title for it, and I have also begun working on a new project.

The new project is something I have had in my mind for a few years now, but hadn't figured out the best way to go about it until recently. It will be about a magical school, and I am writing it for my youngest to have something to grow up with. I also am hoping to go about the publishing of this one in a more traditional way, but I will continue to self-publish Immortality Sucks.

In other news, I have been trying to do better about my social media lately. I haven't gotten perfect at it and I am still trying to figure out a good place to film things, but I have put out multiple videos on TikTok over the past couple of weeks. I have also put one of my books in the TikTok shop, and I am planning on getting the other one in there this weekend.

I have tried to stay away from politics before, and I am in no way getting into it now, but I do feel that it would be stupid of me to stay silent about the path my country has been taking.

Things have gone from bad to worse as the year goes by, and my heart goes out to everyone that is more affected by the current administration than I am. I am currently worried about a friend of mine who has no way to earn money and has to be at the hospital several times a week for treatments; because, it looks as though he might be kicked off a few of the government programs that are helping him survive.

If you read that last thing and had any thought but concern for my friend, then I don't know why you follow me. He did everything right in his life, but had a run of medical issues while he was looking for a job after College. So he was a college graduate, and like many other college graduates he landed a minimum wage job because that was the best he was able to get. Then he went into the hospital and has been in and out of the hospital ever since.

He currently does have internet access, but because of certain things that are currently in the works, him having subsidized internet may cause him to be kicked off of SNAP. Obviously if that's the case he's going to choose food, but he shouldn't have to. He barely pays anything for his internet, but according to the new bill, if someone has internet access then they don't need SNAP benefits. Let's not even consider the fact that most of SNAP is done online after you get on it.

It's July 4th, but what the hell is anyone celebrating?

If you support this administration or really any Republicans then get the hell out of here.

If you support Democrats tell them to stop being dicks. At least they might listen.

I know no one actually reads these, but if you do and you actually stayed till this point, then I am sorry for the mini rant. I'm just tired of all the crap going on in this country; because, really, this is just the latest in a flood of crap this administration has done. Each week has been something different, and it's not that I have forgotten the other things, this is just the most fresh thing on my mind.

I hope everyone has a good day though. Well, everyone except for the political comicbook villains running this country.

It's not that I forgot that I wanted to be more active with posting things on my website, I've just been constantly looking at my website and going, "I really should post something on there. Sure no one reads these, but if I ever want anyone to come to my site and check things out, I should really be more active." Then I run out of time to be able to post anything. Also, I feel a little ridiculous that I've been trying to get myself to edit a book for so long and still have little to update on it. 

Personal life has caused many things to be a bit more difficult when it pertains to finding time to do stuff. I have been streaming, and if you follow me then wonderful! If you don't, I would love for you to come by during my streams and hang out.

I am still working on my edits for the third book in the Immortality Sucks series. I am hoping to finish them before my niece's birthday which means that if all goes to plan I will likely have a release date for the public sometime this summer. 

Why have edits been so slow?

I have had a rough near decade.

I used to work at a job that, while it did not pay as well as I would have liked, it allowed a great deal of time in front of a computer screen as well as time when I was in between tasks that allowed me to be able to spend time working on my side projects a bit. Naturally the job always came first while I was there, but if I had thirty minutes here or there scattered throughout the day, I would be able to work on something personal. So long as I got my work done no one seemed to mind.  Basically, it was a a pretty cush job, and it allowed me a great deal of freedom despite not making enough to fully support living in this disaster of a world.

The company was bought out by another company, and this other company was a bunch of dicks. They used loopholes to allow them to not have to pay any severance to a great many people that they fired... I'm sorry, that they did not have a position to hire them under. As for the people they kept on, they made sure to split them all up in order to break up any loyalties. Like I said, Adam's Beverage... oh sorry, I guess I shouldn't use the company's name. Badam's Meverage, is a shitty company that smiles at you while planning to stab you in the back.

Off that tirade now, I worked at another place for a year, but it did not work out, and then I started my current job which I do like. The only problem with this job is the fact I don't have as much time to work on my personal projects.

On top of all that, I have had a couple marriages fall apart and have been struggling with depression while not having the money to set aside to do anything to help that since I try to put most of my money towards tending to my children.

I won't get into to details about my marriages here since those are more personal than bad mouthing a comapany I don't like.

If that wasn't enough I have ADHD which often causes me to forget that there was something I wanted to work on, or want to work on something but find myself unable to get up and do it despite wanting to.

I have been managing to find ways to work through this issue, but it is still a bit slow going.

All this to say, I am trying to work on things, but it has been slow and difficult.

I doubt anyone will ever read this, and that is kind of why I was able to open up so much if I'm being fully honest with myself.

Still, if someone does actually read this, know that I am doing better one day at a time, then go buy my books and check out all my attempts at doing things in order to show your support and give me that little bit of encouragement that comes with seeing someone do that.

Look at me posting again without even a month going by.

I hope everyone is doing well out there. I know many of you may have some ominous feelings due to the events that unfolded in the U.S., but try to keep moving forward. That’s all you can do. As for those who are happy with what happened, understand that you should not gloat and mock those who are frightened about what may happen. Instead, if you truly believe this was for the better, you should look out for them and help them out. There is no winner if we all continue believing that there are two teams in this country. The way we win is by looking out for everyone and working together, and especially not discriminating against anyone.

Now that I have said my peace I will do a magnificent transition to another topic.

WHAT THE HELL IS THAT!!! O.O

So I had a birthday a couple days ago, and I most certainly did not fluctuate between incredibly depressed and gleefully full of food. No idea why anyone would even think such things.

I’m fine, really. Don’t worry. I have been working on edits again, and I have also grown bored and begun working on the fourth book.

“But Seriostar. You haven’t published your third book yet.”

I am aware. That is what the editing is all about. I will get it done soon. 

This time I really mean it.

I hope everyone stays well, and if you aren't well I hope you get well soon.

I really am bad at getting around to doing stuff on my site. I need to get better at that.

My friend has told me that I tend to try and do too much, and because of that I have a hard time completing things. One such thing is my third book. I finished the first draft a while ago, but for some reason I just can’t seem to get myself to finish the edits on it.

That being said, I am trying to take a more active approach at getting all of the edits done, so hopefully it won’t be too much longer.

For those interested in why things have taken so long, much of my personal life has been flipped, shaken, stirred, poured out, picked up by hand, shaken up with dirt still on it, and then poured out again. I am mostly fine now, but I have had to become accustomed to a lot of new things, and it is causing me to have some trouble focusing.

I am slowly recovering, and it really is just taking a lot of patience from myself, so if you are waiting for the third book, I promise I will get it out as soon as I can.

In other news, my friends and I are going to begin working on new Quantum Geek things soon, and to that end, I have begun releasing the episodes again. Currently they are the old ones still, but they will be released on my Youtube channel as well as Spotify. As soon as everything is caught back up, we will have new episodes released, so hope everyone enjoys them.

This post is mainly just an update post since I haven’t done one in a while. Next time I’ll try to have more interesting things to talk about.

I know I haven't been posting about any updates lately. Truth be told, I've had a great many lifechanging events occur in my life, and unfortunately not many have been good events. That being said, I am planning on getting back to working on things coming up soon. This is one of the first things on my list of things that I need to start doing more regularly. (This being a blog post)

So, this new year has come with new challenges and new opportunities. I am working on getting myself to do things more frequently while still allowing myself some leniency. After all that I've been through, I think it's for the best I don't force anything, but I do want to push myself to work on and finish things that I dream of doing. That being the case, you can definitely expect to see a bit more from me going forward.

Book update: I am working on the edits still. Due to the life changes that I mentioned earlier, I have not finished them, but I am working on them. I am hoping to get them finished before summer is over which means that I am hoping for a possible book release in the fall, likely before Christmas.

I also am working on a couple other small, but fun projects that will be released for free on my website, so keep checking in for those.

Anyways, I hope everyone is having a decent year.

My husband got a new job that requires him to be away a bit more, so I'm doing my best not to let myself get down. Luckily I have plenty of things to keep myself occupied. One of those things of course being working on a book.

I know that I always say not to stress yourself out too much about the things you want to do, but unfortunately, that can be harder to do than it is to say. I am doing my best to make the time to work on it. I also have some other things that I am trying to get up and going, and that is another thing I am bad about doing. Which is to say that I try to do too many things at the same time. I'm always trying to be better about that, but it can be difficult since I don't seem to have the power to create into existence what I have in my head just by willing it for two seconds.

I have managed to narrow things down to just three projects at least. The third book in Immortality Sucks is the one I am trying to make time for most, especially since my niece is asking about it.

I also may have fallen into a bit of a podcast rabbit hole with a podcast called The Film Reroll. If you haven't heard of it and you enjoy RPGs and/or movies, I highly recommend it.

I read a couple of Jules Verne books not long ago though, and though I am not a huge fan of some things about his stories, I really do like some of his ideas.

I think I'm now just writing random thoughts that enter my head now, so I'll go ahead and say I hope you all have a great day and many successes in your endeavors.

Though I had a rather rough 2022, I am happy that I made it through another one.

I had hoped to have finished the third book in the Immortality Sucks Saga by now, so I am a bit disappointed in myself for not completing it as of yet. I am happy to say that I am well on my way to completing it though, and therefore ask any who are looking forward to it to have just a bit more patience with me.

I am also looking forward to working on a new project once I finish this third installment of the Immortality Sucks Saga. I won't get into that too much at the moment though, as I don't want to say anything before I actually begin work on it.

Hopefully, everyone has a good 2023. I know I plan to do my best to make it as amazing as possible.

Crazy to think that it's been two years since the release of Demonic Whispers. 

Truth be told, I really wish I could finish up my stories a lot quicker, but sometimes the world and life just get in the way. 

I am currently working on the third book in the series, and I hope to release it this year. It will continue to follow Samantha as she copes with the loss of her friend. It will also introduce two new characters to the series. A werewolf named Margaret, and a psychic named Domino. Each of the three will have their own problems they must face, but like the other two books, they all end up colliding with each other after a while.

I am working as hard as I can to finish it up; because, I too want to see what happens to these characters, and not even I can know that until I've written it.

In other news, I will likely work on a new series in addition to Immortality Sucks soon, but right now I can't get into talking about that too much. Just be aware that it will be a different genre, but I hope everyone enjoys it as well.

Finally, I will be continuing the Geek View podcast this year beginning in February. Check my Social Media links to find it on Spotify.

Wishing everyone a happy New Year. Let's make it a great one. :)